March 26th-27th, 2023- Waxing Crescent Gemini

I have reflected upon the demonization of my intentions and doings within my life. It has been told that I am creating lies, being dramatic or speaking on matters that do not concern me. I wish to clear the air behind my purpose. While I understand that which I say, write or believe can be troublesome to most, it is not with maliciousness. I do not have anything to gain from spewing lies. I do not need to control a narrative. I simply and desperately wish to bring forth the truth. I am sick of the webbed bed of lies that I had been raised within. Raised from a karmic cycle, a collective culture of delusions.

I do not speak any stories, share any details or express myself to be the victim, the holy one. I have always sought to be freed. Which it is said the truth will bestowed upon you. I do not believe anything my family, nor any friend, spouse nor acquaintance has done to be worthy of public execution. I see a wound, a deep universal, familial wound that repeats itself over and over again. I see unhealed, misguided souls lying to themselves to survive. Fighting through manipulation out of fear of pain, death and failure. To play face and fake it until they make it. They deny the truth within themselves. Following along with the indoctrinated advice of the tyrannical masses. They despise me for bringing it out within them. They defend themselves by naming me a liar, martyring the narrative or enacting a plan of painful revenge.

I do not believe what the majority have been through is fair. Nor do I believe that the world deserves to be their punching bag as a result of the unfairness they all have endured. I see my mother, my family, my friends and the world as a whole, as one large soul in need of the deepest healing. I see the collective as a family, as a unit in need of unionization. All I seek, I seek out of love to evolve into the highest, most pure essence we were destined to be. My wish for all who cross my path is to find healing, love and peace within themselves. I desire they shine that radiant heart of gold I know they all guard deeply within themselves. I wish to retire their diluted, entrapping addiction based coping mechanisms filled with escapism. I wish the collective the strength to not sacrificially bury and survive, but to surrender and soften into their love frequency. I hope to share, guide and lead them to the answers of her prayers. I find myself hurt and struggling with the task. Being the one sent to save someone or something so large, only hurts you as a result. Providing my purpose has been met with the most controversy and lack of understanding behind my methods. The tasks of the healer, are not for the weak of heart nor mind.

I suppose I grasp onto spirituality and astrology so passionately is because at least I can rationalize that there’s something beneficial to this experience. Now I can give it meaning. Whether it’s metaphorical or theistic I don’t know. I only know that I felt better. Once I believed that the universe was directing me to learn these skills on all planes to achieve nirvana, well it ignites a reason to live. It provides me a path. Versus a path of despair and nihilism. I believe we all know our purpose, which is our choiced, free willed lifestyle of our desires. We all have the right to be who we are without fear of exile. That does not result in no consequences. Consequences and balanced energy exchanges are a universal law of scales. Think wisely before choosing an action. Turn inward and feel for yourself your own inner truth and analyze if that truth is even true. Shatter every question. Poke every hole and experience life. When you’re aligned, you have nothing to fear. As is said by the voice of god, do not fear.