March 16th-17th, 2023- Last Quarter Phase Capricorn -Aquarius- The Great Bird Triggering

Through these final stages of this astrological year, I have found a few events to be coming full circle. I do not regret, nor take any word I spoke over the birds, their bones and my anarchist philosophy that the MBTA is another fraudulent, facade of a law enforced to remove the power within the people, within nature, divinity and to exploit more revenue at the expense of the natives of this land. I want to make it significantly fucking clear, the pathetic, closed and small minds of the internet did not break me. The reaction to the birds was the spark that lit the flames of my being. My phoenix cycle had begun. Which I initiated, had been initiating and working to be able to withstand and achieve. I have been disgusted and in dire egotistical need to express to the collective who believed that THEY had in fact won? Beat me? HAHAHA! It was always going to be me who had the final laugh. You were merely pawns to my absolution, the rise of my power. However, with that being said, it did not mean that the entirety of the situation was enjoyed. I felt extreme, intense emotional and mental pain. I set out to burn all that no longer served me. To burn away all the bridges of access to my heart that were unworthy of the passion and love I radiate, that I shine as my divine gift to you all. Too often did I allow low vibrational, boot licking, tit suckling weaklings to cause me to question myself. I chose this path to build and assess my strength. I do not always find the rules to be fair when experiencing the exam, however, each and every time I have come out on top. My will is unmatched. It does not matter how long it takes me to rise, I always do. The timeframe is insignificant, I know that now. I had frequently bullied myself over the time it took me to accomplish the tests. Rushing is a fools game, equivalent to the foolish minds of our majority. It is truly impressive the strategy and ability of the other to brain wash and condition so many, me included at one point in time. It is not humiliating to admit I had been fooled and easily conditioned just as the rest. My issue with the world is that they simply do not question it. My external actions did not align with my questioning mind. Your heart and your soul HAS to KNOW something is not right here in this world, this realm of absurdity. Yet, I am villainized for finding the truth with my vocal spotlight?

To redirect, the bird anarchy response video was meant to be a passionate rant to teach the collective of the obvious treachery behind these laws we all blindly accept with our taxes and polished virtue signaling. Do I believe poachers to be evil and vile brutes? Obviously. It was beyond unreasonable that a majority of the community were unable to discern the boundary in the complexity of this circumstance. Poachers, are obviously, wretched. They disrespect the land, the animals, the divinity within life and exploit it for their own personal sins. However, we do not create laws that block the spiritual engagements of the individual to extinguish the crimes of greed. In a moment I will express why this becomes conspiratorial. To maintain the perspective of the baseline view of “reality.” This law was created to prevent white men from poaching and selling animal goods, protect animals from endangerment, and to help the indigenous tribes continue to engage in their practice with the help of the government. This can be a poor regurgitation of what the law “truly” means. However that is the core direction. Stop poachers, help animals and respect the indigenous tribes. If you are from a tribe you can collect the animals, from what I have been told. This is a bias. Who is to say the modern native would not exploit the creatures? Then to prevent that issue, you report the bones, feathers etc to the DNR, a government funded and regulated corporation. The DNR then decides which of these go to science, a museum or an indigenous tribe. This is where the boot licker outrage brews. Why do you need an official to tell you what to do? Especially when you know what you should do? I cannot understand how people cannot take control for themselves and do the right thing. It’s either willful evil or willful ignorance. We live in a bubble wrapped world of unstable lies. Of which, I should not be responsible for. “Survival of the fittest was a bullshit lie.”

Which brings me to another point from a comment made. I do not believe in imprisonment on any level. I believe in freedom, consequence and death. You are free to make all decision as you personally see fit. You are not free from the consequences. Another chooses what they do for themselves. Your actions may be responsible for those consequences. Simple lesson in to think before you act, and fix any problems you create. There are basic laws of nature to follow. Which is where murder is not condoned without reason. If you are to choose a behavior that is cruel, unreasonably violent and disrespectful to the natural order? Your consequence is that of human sacrifice. Some offenses can be reasoned with through therapeutic models. However, your consequence fits your crime. The entirety of the story must be told with pure truth. If you are guilty of violent malice? You are to be put to death to reincarnate and live out your karma in your next life to learn the lessons. I believe too many others have a sense that karma is generated from every small imperfection. Karma is generated from the scale of your purity in the intentions behind your actions and how you learn from them. This is not difficult to implement and mirror on a collective scale for policing, courting and “governing” the population. Therefore, back to the birds, poachers killing for the sake of exploitation? Put to death or equivalent consequence pending retribution. Second chances are necessary as we all fuck up and need a chance to redeem ourselves. The redemption will not be perfect, but it will be apparent with effort.

How does this become conspiratorial? Well, we have thousands of years worth of evidence to demonstrate what these animal bones, feathers etc etc were utilized for on a magickal and spiritual scale. Just as the christian church stole, white washed and dismantled pagan practices, why wouldn’t they equally steal, demonize and regulate the part of those practices that were animal based for a further spiritual control? Because yet again, we are forced to trust that the government will do the right thing. A government who has a public history of not standing for the people and using the foundations of the population to build their own selfish sinful empire? The modern government and collective mentality is as disgusting as the false god in the old testament. Another fear mongering narrative misconstrued with falsehoods. It is impossible to trust and flow with society under these circumstances. We are all insecure spouses with a serial cheating partner. We need to rebuild our foundations of community and trust. We need to be able to open our minds and listen to the expressions of others. We need to allow freedom for all minds to have space to platform. While I do not put all my eggs into this basket, I would not be surprised if it turned out that the Lizard King Free Masons of the Government were intentionally manipulating spiritual, magickal and quantum based practices, beliefs, and tools. This is how shattered our grasp of reality has become. The masks are falling and the lies are shining through the cracks, blinding the weak and igniting the strong.

I will not and cannot tolerate, accept, or embrace any law that can have holes poked through it with such ease. The world needs to make sense and it does not. We have lost our grip. The collective uprising is one catastrophic psychotic break. I am not a villain for questioning the world. You are a worthless worm for accepting it.

With that being said, the bird engagement truly was a powerful tower moment for myself. I was surprised at the truths that came to be. I was not emotionally upset over the internet and it’s reactions. I understand there will always be trolls or misalignments in philosophy when engaging with such a vast online population. Which I accept. I was having fun with the debates and expressions online. Where it became heavy, was in the way it triggered a sense of insecurity and outcast emotions that I had battled with through my life. Through the arrogant, bravado expression of how the internet was reacting to my voice, my stance, opinion and realm of thought, I was able to discover the leeches of my life. While I did not care about what the internet and the world thought, I was devastated to uncover what my world had thought about me. I found that I was surrounded with loved ones who did not love me. They didn’t like me on any scale. Why they were around? I was, and still am blind to. This is where my dreamy and romantic nature truly created my own demise. I had become so dissociated from the truth of my feelings and experiences, not only was I a people pleaser? But I was disconnected from myself. I had my world in my head and the story I told myself within the perception that I traumatize-ed-ly wished to believe. “They wouldn’t do that, that’s my friend. That’s my brother. That’s my mom, my dad.” I would logic my way out of feeling anything true. I was constantly told that my feelings were not true, real or mattered. I was often told I was sensitive and dramatic. While, that can be true within reason. I have analyzed myself. I am not emotional when I am on my own. When I am surrounded by others, I am filled with emotions. Emotions I do not recognize to be mine. I discovered I would be crying and yelling at my husband. He would ask "Why do you feel this way." And the answers always started with the name of another person. He would stop me and say “I don’t care what ____ says. Why do YOU feel that way?” I would become perplexed and lost for words. I often times had to pause and think. Which I would say, “Well I don’t. I think this ___.” After a few fights, I realized how reactive, emotionally messy and confused I had become. I panicked over the identify crisis. I knew who I was deep within but she was lost in a web of other people. I had become beaten down by always being told I needed to be something or someone else in order to be loved. I felt so alone, I sacrificed myself and would change simply to never be left again. I became exactly who they wanted me to be and they still left anyways. I grew sick of it and began my journey of healing, as I have mentioned before.

Through this journey I had found myself again, however in order to unapologetically be myself, I had to remove an immense amount of souls and energy from me. The bird video showed me who I could trust, who was in alignment, who didn’t agree but supported me as I was and those who were surface level with a mask of depth. I found that many of my friends hated my mindset, my philosophies and believed me to be stupid, young and in need of being saved, educated and redirected. I found plenty of family and friends to truly be unsettled and scared of me. I found judgment in every corner. I have opinions, strong ones with colorful expression, however, I would never judge someone. I have a very strict base of morale where I love, accept and hold space for every soul as they are. Does not mean I will not comment my opposition or express a boundary or need to remove myself from your energy. It all becomes too fucking personal, when it never was. The response? To attack and demonize me. Because they know their shitty truth, their desperate need to get ahead of the narrative in hopes of discrediting me. My heart ached from the pain of judgement, of loneliness, the confusion of being outcasted, the obsession with proving my worth and accuracy. This is what had broken me through this path. These moments are the times in which I had to pick up the pieces of my soul, my heart and my essence in this world. Those moments collided into the projection of my death. I desperately wish the world could see the truth as I know it. When given a platform, I truly make sense that is balanced for all. When given the chance and am heard with an open heart and mind, I have left the most loving mark of impression that pays forward the collective ascension. I have learned the skill of communication, the power of my karmic energy and the strength of detachment. I have important and well thought out ideas for change. They are radical and uncomfortable as change will always be. It is important to let go and move forward. We cannot be held back as a collective nor individuals any further. Balance of nature will be restored. I have been reborn.