June 18th-19th, 2023- New Moon Gemini

This New Moon has been a dream. I have felt completely blissful, in alignment, within myself and truly at peace. It hasn’t been easy to achieve, to cultivate and to embrace. The emotional, physical and spiritual purging of it all has been one hell of an adventure and a ride, I am not sure I truly wish to experience again. I much prefer the trustful faith of the divine power than the tests of faith, however, those 11th hour miracles rekindled a spark unlike any other flame known to man.

This New Moon fell on a Sunday. I kept true to my Sunday Leisures and I did not complete my cleansing routine. I did not stress nor budge and took action within my own time line and circadian rhythm. I cleansed the following day, a Monday. A sacral self care day. I believe this to be an extension of the foundational self care required within the root chakra. It is humorous to me how much these flows align with the task analysis studies I endured in OT school. Another full circle moment of everything being necessary and followed according to plan.

I enjoyed a Sunday, telepathically sending out intention for the ritual. I accomplished goals within my business and my new flow of how I will be handling tasks moving forward. I feel more aligned, more organized and significantly more manageable. As I continue to discover which works for me the best, I believe to have found a routine, a plan and clarity. Leaning into the restful energy of the New Moon and the social leisure of the Gemini Sun/Moon alignment, we enjoyed a father’s day meal with the in laws, followed up with cheesecake and coffee at one of mine and Chad’s favorite spots. As many worries as I am sure I could have struggled to worry and fix. As many moments as I could have felt stuck, frozen and lost. I felt none of the above. I’ve achieved a moment of presence, trust and balance. I feel as if the world is my oyster. As if nothing can touch me, nor harm me. I feel as if all the hard work has been done, the labor is complete and the celebration of success, of rebirth of life is here within me now. I can sense the gifted surprise of my Solstice blessings wrapped and under the apple tree, inside the garden, nested within the flowers. I feel the stability, the power, the love of my godhood. I feel unstoppable. Grateful for the life I have built to call my own.

This energy carried over into the morning hours of the Monday Blues. I awoke with such drive. A drive I have not felt in years. I accomplished exactly as I had wished to accomplish, with the sprinkles of a few extras I am pleased to have been able to squeeze into my day. I no longer feel a pressure or a rush. My timing, is divine timing and divine timing is always perfect. I dread every conforming to another time illusion again.. in fact, I refuse. I have had an OT job pending for a few weeks, to supplement some income during this recession. As I have stated, I do not desire to work in that field nor any other corporate every again. I know within my heart I will not work this new job. Spirit has to be blocking me and allowing time for the blessings to properly fruit. It has been the most tedious of reasons as to why my start date has been delayed week after week. Yet, I am not worried. I have had moments, but not nearly anything as I have had in the past. The strength to redirect myself is astonishing. It reminds me of the day when I realized I was able to lift 225lbs for multiple reps or the day I accomplished a surprise and last minute testing plan of lifting a new PR of 275lbs and then again with 315lbs. Stronger and stronger. More and more powerful each and every moment. It is amazing to think I have only just begun. I cannot wait to see how far I know I will successfully go.

My home life has created a loving sanctuary that I never wish to escape. A sanctity that brings me to my knees and over pours my eyes with tears of joy. I no longer carry the weight of judgment of others. I have the fuck you abundance necessary to put the money where my mouth is, and will continue to be. My gift is in my voice, my story telling. I will no longer fear nor bow down to the lessers who cannot withstand nor grasp such power. The alignment of Divine Femininity dances through my veins.

I have been beyond grateful to experience the previews of the bliss of peace Chad and I are about to permanently soar with. Today while cleansing, an entire morning of intimate matrimony manifested in my present presence. The passionate spark of the masculine drive to take the woman he loves as she alchemizes magick within their hearth. A passionate orgasm that has been seemingly blocked through a cycle of shadow, through a forest of thieves, thorns and atrocities. A memory that can only be reflected with tears of happiness and gratitude for the divinity that gracefully blessed my home with their holy spirit. I have never thought to think that our love and expressions of it could manifest even deeper, and yet, we reach another depth. I am beginning to believe the depth never ends. As we ascend, we truly descend. Descend into the void, the healing water, the flowing Milky Way and out into the next experience of life.