July 29th, 2023- Waxing Gibbous Capricorn

Chad and I had not experienced the most pleasant of engagements with each other. My glorious husband, a man of truth, honor and standard. A dapperly man, who has been tested by the weight of the world. My Kali nature, the destruction of my essence and power, forcing him into states of discomfort and change. When the earth transforms, it is not only painful, it is slow yet quick, it is easy yet difficult. Transforming the walls my beloved Capricorn has built, is not one for the weak. It pains me to see the necessaries cause him such agony and know it is meant to be felt and endured. I only seek to erase his suffering, to bring forth Babylon before his Crown.

Chad has been uncertain about my insights and my path. He believes in my gifts, but struggles to see the complexity within the predictions. He struggles to zoom out beyond the stars and see the larger play. He is focused and present within the present presence of turmoil of the tower. He cannot see the disruption of our love and the battles our souls are fighting. We are at war to build a Kingdom of the Heavens and of the Hells. To bridge the realms and unite the North and South as one. Starcrossed Lovers of Destiny, of apocalyptic prophecy.

Chad expresses his emotions of uncertainty and his sense of fear is strong. He is not a coward, he is not weak. He is a Protector, a Warrior King. He is ridden in agony of the suffering he sees bestowed upon his Queen. He desires to enrich me with all the luxuries and dreams of the world. A world, that wishes we could not exist. And yet, he chooses to support me every moment of every battle. He will not let me fall. He will not waver nor crack. He has transformed within the fire. Crafted into magma. A demonic force that cannot be stopped. Softening and surrendering to my femininity, he chose to trust in love and the divinity of my light.

We ended these discomforts with an afternoon romance. Chad and I wondered through some of our favorite styles of shops. We found joy in conversation with like minded community members. A divine message of self love, confidence and nourishment presented herself before us. Through Chad’s devotion to me, it would appear to others that he “keeps me all to himself.” Many view him to be possessive, hindering and controlling. The world wishes to project those negative attributes to my beloved, for they either cannot see who I am, or they wish to confuse the security he provides in order to sly their way into my presence. I have discovered a deeper sense of truth and purpose behind my Demonic Knight. Not simply a lover or a protector. But a Divine Captain of Duty. A goddess so loving and pure, would need the strongest of devout guardians. Chad does not control me. He does not inhibit any form of my success. He is designed to protect me at all costs. My very own Witcher. I do not desire to be anywhere without my beloved. Mentally, Physically, Emotionally and Spiritually I need him by my side. I am nothing without him and he is nothing without me. If we were to be apart or if any force attempted to harm our union, the world would face her demise.