April 4th-9th, 2023- Full Moon in Libra
- Sarah O'Dell
- Apr 9, 2023
- 28 min read
Updated: Mar 15
These reflections upon my “racist” actions are here and upon us. How humorous, the internet requested that I listen to them, while equally demanding immediate response, without giving proper time to reflect upon the expressions provided. I find this immediate gratification to be a significant flaw in the evolution of the human psyche and our societal conditioning. I have read the comments. I have witnessed the expressions of anger, resentment, confusion, arrogance, ignorance and pure hatred. I have selectively responded to comments, not to be rude to the others, but to allow time to process. Equally, in other situations, I responded to be spiteful or nonchalant to some in defense of myself or out of my own humor. It truly depended on the context. Others I completely ignored. When “overwhelmed” with such high traffic reactions, it can be difficult to discern when to engage and when not to. I utilized this opportunity to practice within myself those feelings, inklings and intuitions. One of the key lessons and points to this experience. It was mentioned that I had upset the gods. Therefore, I do not need to face my peers in this collective environment, but I am to turn inward and face the gods themselves for my actions. I am just, I am fair. I will face my consequences without struggle when they are true and balanced.
Many will not believe in my experience nor my actions. That is their issue to bear, not mine. I have nothing to gain by lying, as the truth will always be revealed. I had been informed that I shouldn’t go near water, that there was a few summonings of Papa Legba unto me. I went out into my yard, naked, under the thunder storms of this last week. I walked and connected within the earth. Allowing the rain to cleanse over me. I laid on the cold, softening ground, allowing all charkas to touch her surfacing floor. I let the rain wash over me, sat within my discomfort of the cold, of the vulnerability. I called out to the earth, to the gods above and below, from all realms of our universal ecosystem. I faced my judgment beneath the energy of the Aries sun, the Libra moon. I humbly sought to accept my fate within the balance of my scales. Again, whether the rest of the world believes me or not, is none of my concern. I know who I am. I am expressing my story of truth of my perspective, of my feelings and of my experience. After this, there is nothing I can do and I surrender the control of the narrative. Think and believe whichever it is you want of me. I stood before my judgment day. And upon my experience in the rain I felt what reminded me of electricity, of power and magnetizing energy starting up from my left foot up to my crown and back down the other side to my right side. I had to crawl back up into my house due to the inability to stand or walk without my legs giving out. Had I been electrocuted? What was this sensation? When it became to much to bear, I returned from my garden to my home. Entering my home to lay within my sacred space, shivering from the entire experience and the cold.
