April 4th-9th, 2023- Full Moon in Libra

These reflections upon my “racist” actions are here and upon us. How humorous, the internet requested that I listen to them, while equally demanding immediate response, without giving proper time to reflect upon the expressions provided. I find this immediate gratification to be a significant flaw in the evolution of the human psyche and our societal conditioning. I have read the comments. I have witnessed the expressions of anger, resentment, confusion, arrogance, ignorance and pure hatred. I have selectively responded to comments, not to be rude to the others, but to allow time to process. Equally, in other situations, I responded to be spiteful or nonchalant to some in defense of myself or out of my own humor. It truly depended on the context. Others I completely ignored. When “overwhelmed” with such high traffic reactions, it can be difficult to discern when to engage and when not to. I utilized this opportunity to practice within myself those feelings, inklings and intuitions. One of the key lessons and points to this experience. It was mentioned that I had upset the gods. Therefore, I do not need to face my peers in this collective environment, but I am to turn inward and face the gods themselves for my actions. I am just, I am fair. I will face my consequences without struggle when they are true and balanced.

Many will not believe in my experience nor my actions. That is their issue to bear, not mine. I have nothing to gain by lying, as the truth will always be revealed. I had been informed that I shouldn’t go near water, that there was a few summonings of Papa Legba unto me. I went out into my yard, naked, under the thunder storms of this last week. I walked and connected within the earth. Allowing the rain to cleanse over me. I laid on the cold, softening ground, allowing all charkas to touch her surfacing floor. I let the rain wash over me, sat within my discomfort of the cold, of the vulnerability. I called out to the earth, to the gods above and below, from all realms of our universal ecosystem. I faced my judgment beneath the energy of the Aries sun, the Libra moon. I humbly sought to accept my fate within the balance of my scales. Again, whether the rest of the world believes me or not, is none of my concern. I know who I am. I am expressing my story of truth of my perspective, of my feelings and of my experience. After this, there is nothing I can do and I surrender the control of the narrative. Think and believe whichever it is you want of me. I stood before my judgment day. And upon my experience in the rain I felt what reminded me of electricity, of power and magnetizing energy starting up from my left foot up to my crown and back down the other side to my right side. I had to crawl back up into my house due to the inability to stand or walk without my legs giving out. Had I been electrocuted? What was this sensation? When it became to much to bear, I returned from my garden to my home. Entering my home to lay within my sacred space, shivering from the entire experience and the cold.

After my experience in the rain, I drew a ritual bath. Before I stepped into the bath, I will admit to the sense of fear I felt. I had felt all the attempts, the blows, the curses, hexes and all ill intent sent my way. I was aware of all that I faced. I had been fearful that this could be my fate, that I was wrong, misguided. That my intuition and experience was nothing more than the “stupid” or “delusional” expressions of my mind. That ultimately, Papa Legba would take my life. Or maybe even the justful vengeance of Mami Wata for offending her divine feminines. I knew that through the expressions of the internet, I had been deemed a racist, a monster, a fraud and among other negative connotations. I can admit to my human nature and my fear of the possibility that I was in the wrong, despite the strong sense from within that I was being intuitively guided, that all of this was necessary. However, equally, I could not trust the words of internet trolls and mistrusted energies that clouded my inner judgement. I was questioning myself, others and the entire world around me. My grasp on my own reality had once again been shattered. I had to detach, turn inward and face my judgment from within. I stepped into the bath. I sat with my fear and accepted whichever fate to come my way. My husband was not home. I knew ultimately, even if he was, no-one could save me if I was to accept my judgment or execution.

It was a pleasant bath. I felt relaxed and calm. I began communicating out loud my story, my intentions, my perspectives behind my words and actions. Channeling as some would call it. This same message I retype now. The same philosophical teachings rooted in inner healing I had attempted to express before. I felt more at peace within. I sat in the darkness, listened to the rain hit the roof of my home. I focused on my breathing and awaited destiny. I had stayed in the bath until she was cold. I did not experience any harm, pain nor turmoil. Was this protection from my guides? Or was this the judgment I deserved? I have called unto the gods to send me nightmares of messages and I would right my wrong doing. I have had nothing but peaceful dreams. I am continued to be guided to trust and allow the process. I am guided to understand that this is not only my judgment day, but the judgment day of others. The energy of Aquarius Pluto, the fall of a corrupted empire, the fall of a false or unstable tower. Shining the light on the true, on the balanced and the integrated and highlighting the truth of the indoctrinated, the misled.

I continuously repeat the situations in my head. I cannot understand the lack of depth within our world and the lack of depth in the response from the comments. I was specifically speaking on the very specific act and spell workings of drowning a mouse for war water. It does not have to do with animal sacrifice as a whole, but this specific incident of, what I deem to be, unjust animal sacrifice. An instance of drowning of a mouse. Drowning I do not find to be humane nor a respectful form of sacrifice due to the long, drawn out horrific nature of the act. It is not quick or efficient. It enforces more suffering than that of which is necessary. And I believe that basis of intent is enough to upset the earth gods and goddesses who honor those living creatures as “children” of their own. Children of which we are meant to be guardians of.. While yes, these gods and goddesses equally accept animal sacrifice, they wouldn't condone the torture of them, the wounding and disgrace of their spirit. And if a god or goddess does? I would understand them to know, that would offset the order and upset or offend another grouping of energies, entities, gods, etc etc. Which would simply not be smart to do. This can create cause or “justification” for war. Any act along these lines, will ultimately offset the scales and natural order of universal peace.

I never once compared black people to animals. If I compared anyone to animals, it was the entire human species. We are ALL animals. Not one group of people or culture. People are animals and we are ALL a part of nature. I find it annoying that humans have become so narcissistic that they believe themselves to not be one with nature at all. I never once said that animal sacrifice was wrong or not to be done. I never once denied my partake in animal sacrifice nor my use of animal bones. My wedding ring is made from human skull and blood, for Christs sake. This is not an expression of hypocrisy. There is a birds eye view I desired to express. Yet it was met with such a significance of selective outrage, lack of context or fundamental insight. Too many reacted to the few key words their triggered minds wanted to hear out of wounding, instead of the expressions of deep healing I was attempting to portray. Equally, I can understand why it triggered their wounds. I can also accept that maybe, it truly was not my place to highlight those wounds, simply because I see them. A lesson in understanding where my place in this world truly is within my gifts of Saturn.

I can admit that I could’ve worded my point better, with more grace. However, ultimately, when trying to condense such complexity into a 3 minute video, it is up to the listener to be able to decipher, “read between the lines,” and make educated assumptions. I had made my own improper assumptions that others had studied to the depth that I have or understood the origins in the way that I have connected them. Ultimately, I realistically needed a platform that allowed a sense of unlimited time to express my verbose and complex story. I had attempted to do so through my first writing, and yet that equally was met with such disdain. I had rushed it in a sense, equally making more assumptions that others would be able to grasp the depth behind my wordings or conclusions. I am speaking from a diverse and multi theoretical perspective. You need to know of multiple theories to reach my conclusion. I believe that each culture, practice and perspective is a puzzle piece to deciphering the answers to the universe, the purpose to the world, to my world.

I am speaking from the universal truths of karma, healing, negative and positive polarity, the purpose of angels, demons and our soul journey etc etc.. This can be a very difficult topic to express due to the paradoxes that embody these theories and insights. How do we maintain the balance within ourselves and our world? How do we interpret these cryptic messages of myths and lore? This can equally be expressed through the lens of an anarchist perspective. We are all entitled to live our lives, our truth. The libertarian and some anarchist perspective states that as long as it does no harm to others. Others believe it is pure chaos and destruction. I do not believe that others truly understand that destruction and chaos are not meant to be viewed with such haste. This is where the myth of Kali Ma, a significantly misunderstood goddess, can be of benefit. Her destruction is out of love for the “greater good.” She destroys the false idols, the insecure foundation and the facade of delusion you have built your personality, your essence and your life. She will destroy all the illusions that removed us away from ourselves, from our soul journey. To redirect, ultimately we do have free will. We CAN choose to do whichever or whatever it is that we want. However, equally that does not remove us from the consequences of those actions and that behavior. When engaging in such spell work, we need to be keeping these in mind. How can I manifest or cultivate or create my desired outcome truthfully?

This is mirrored all over the world. We can utilize the example of world cultures and our governmental systems that “maintain peace,” (which I say very loosely, as they have not successfully executed their supposed purpose.) How do you attain world peace, spiritual nirvana, utopia and godhood? It sounds simple enough. Allow people freedom to live their lives and do as thou wilt, however do so justly with purpose, reasoning and introspective thought as to what or how these workings will express themselves as a vibrational ripple that hits the quantum field. Compromise to maintain the peace for all involved, each individual can agree to an equitable outcome for the evolution of not only their inner journey, but the evolution of the collective. The scales of Yin and Yang, the black and white, the feather and the heart are level.

Your energetic work, your actions, they create a ripple in the quantum field, as I stated above. They generate a butterfly effect, that not only is expressed unto you, but that unto others. This does not have to mean you are a follower of the rule of three or limited spell workings. Simply, there are fundamental universal laws that all must uphold and attend to. You can rebalance out these laws by replacing or transmuting them with another. Either way the scale is balanced. You can, as in you are capable, of completing baneful magick with baneful actions that are truly horrific. You have the free will to choose to do so. However, it is important to ask yourself why you are choosing to do so? Are your reasonings from a place of TRUE justice? A place of wounding and cyclical revenge? A reaction to a lesson of our own inner demons? I have found majority of the witches on social media or modern day new age occultists do not ask themselves these questions. How do I know? Their responses to my questions and insights are their tell. Either way, this is important to be contemplating before engaging in spell work and ensuring you are choosing the balanced method of execution and the punishment fits the crime. For if it is not a balanced act, you will offset the natural order. Which if that is your plan? Ultimately that is your right, but equally you will be battling other forces and then it becomes a game of good vs evil and a constant loop of revenge. A never ending war that manifests within ourselves, within our families, within our communities, states, countries and globe.

Redirecting to my understanding of voodoo practices. Voodoo means spirit. That is to my understanding to mean that the practice of voodoo is the magick of the spirit. A deep, divine and powerful connection to the spirit realm or source. With such a deep connection to the spirit realm and the spirits of all life, as a worship or engagement with the spirit realm, I cannot understand a connection to the practice of such disrespect of spirit or life through torturous sacrificial actions. To sacrifice an animal, as I had said before, means to make sacred. This equally is an expression of honor along the spirit journey of the animal by guiding them to their ascension through death or change or evolution. Death worship and sacrifice whether human or animalistic or through use of plants and any spirited “object,” is in honor of the principle or philosophy that it takes life to give life. That we are all from the same source of life as living beings. Cut the flesh of your own and see the blood, turn to cut the flesh of an animal or a form of another and you shall see the blood is the same. To live is to suffer and equally to enjoy. A balance of lessons in perspective, however equally you cannot compare suffering. One suffers within one’s personal experience. Who is to say which form of slavery or torture is worse than the other? Ultimately the core root of the intention or feeling is suffering or pain. Therefore one should view all execution of acts of violence from a lens of necessary means. You enforce only suffering of which is necessary and in respectful equivalence to how you would desire to suffer if you were in the reversed role. This is how you learn how to become a worthy King/Queen, God/Goddess, Emperor/Empress, Priest/Priestess of your inner world. Not a world over others. A world filled with powerful kingdoms of all, working together in harmony to live in a prosperous utopia. The consequence is a balanced response to the action.

This is the lesson of deep healing within our actions and respect for the gift that is life and the gift that is in the evolution of death. To suffer is to find the silver lining within your growth. I have found that philosophy to be a deep reasoning behind the ritualistic nature of animal sacrifice. I will not claim to be an initiate of voodoo or to know everything there is to know about voodoo. However when it comes to the basic philosophy of the practice and the etymology behind these words and rituals, I feel I have a justified reason to speak out or question the actions behind, what I perceive to be, misaligned views or corrupted expressions of these practices. This is not an attack of racism. This is deeper than race. It is a collective discussion needed to be had to heal and evolve into a better world of tomorrow. To understand where we all came from and can reunite again.

I am not dismissing nor diminishing the pain of one’s life, history, trauma, ancestors, descendants and all of the above. In fact, I honor that pain and suffering and understand it to be the same weight I have carried within my own lineage in it’s own way. I can extend that empathy as a fellow suffered being. I can equally put myself in the state of mind to feel what you are feeling on a soul or energetic level. I may not ever truly KNOW, 1000000000%, without a doubt your exact perspective of feeling but I can sense and see your pain. I can understand what that could mean if I was to experience it for myself. Equally, throughout history, all lineages of humanity have experienced that level of horror in it’s own manifestation. The earth, history and the collective constantly repeat cycle after cycle. Replacing one group with the other, over and over again and again. How do we stop this cycle from manifesting? How do we prevent these horrors?

I find that I believe the recent historical expression of the Native American genocide, the Black slavery, the Irish slavery, the Holocaust and many others to be lessons we can learn from now, to start creating a change to stop the modern day slavery we are all experiencing on one scale or another. We are all slaves to the systemic indoctrinations within our society that off balance ourselves and our purpose to live and connect in this world. Slavery was not abolished, it was simply evolved or transcended into a different expression, scale or level. I wish to bridge the horrors of the past to the ones of today in order to heal, to mend the cut. Many commented saying they did not want unity. Living in revenge? Living within such hatred? This is how we repeat the cycle of suffering, sacrificing one group for the other, time after time again. The power hungry seeking to not rise above independently but to become the tyrant himself. Our power is within our ability to stand together, not in our ability to stand above one another.

I am not speaking that my personal suffering is worse. If we were to compare, I could equally say that my suffering is moderate. Not minimal and overly privileged, but definitely not as horrible as it could have been or be. To which I express gratitude. This can be an expression of the spiritual philosophy of karma, whether personal, ancestral and collectively. Maybe there is a soul journey in which you are here to learn and test how resilient you are in balancing out your scales. That is equally an expression of alchemist philosophies. How can you transmute this lead to gold? How can you rise from the ashes? How can you learn from your demons?

This is where I bring in my philosophy and understanding of demonology, demonolatry, satanism etc etc. Through my teachings within the left hand path, I have found that demons are not the tyrants nor monsters they are depicted. They are gods and have the polaric scale that all energies do. I personally believe it is in how you present yourself with them and with any spiritual energy. This does not mean that I am naive to there being harmful energies out there. I will get to that. To redirect to demons. There is a reason that each demon has an angel above them. They are one in the same. An angel is a demon and vice versa. They are all teachers. The demon of greed? He does not make you greedy. He guides you through the lessons of greed. He will show you the consequences of your greed and the debt or karma or weight you have placed upon your soul for not transmuting that energy, that experience, that lesson. Once you learn your lesson, your reward is the angel of prosperity. My favorite example of this is mirrored in the martial arts realm. To have a black belt, master mentor/teacher, they will test you. They will fight you. They will push you to your limit to teach you how to learn. They give you a safe environment to learn and grow. Your master or your mentor, for a better terminology under the circumstances, is your teammate, your friend. They show you a raw form of love that is unbiased and present for your best interest for you to achieve your mastery level of success. Another example would be in the Disney Hercules or the Labors of Hercules. Once you have successfully accomplished your labors you will ascend into your godhood and live on Mt Olympus.

When you summon a demon you are asking to experience situations that will test you and it is up to you to see how you fail or succeed. Do or do not. This is similar to Hellraiser, how can you know pleasure unless you know pain? It is up to your mental strength to turn the pain into pleasure, which will ultimately make the pleasure beyond euphoric. When you send a demon to someone, it does not direct what you think it does. If you believe other wise, I question not only my interpretation of these teachings or my experiences with these entities, but I equally question any blockages that eliminate you from reaching my understanding. I equally trust your perspective as I trust mine. I hold a space for everything to be true, and equally nothing to be true at all. I am a mere observer, gathering in all data and analyzing it as I see it and continue to grow that knowledge through each experience. I am here to learn and to grow. Another reason you see these memoirs through my perspective. Not from victimization, but from my own eye, my own reflective journal. If we follow the perspective that we are all the universe experiencing itself. I have found that there is equivalent truth to all these spiritual perspectives and philosophies. Each unique, individual soul is a puzzle piece to the collective image. Each unique spiritual practice is the puzzle piece to the entire answer of ascension.

To redirect back to the balance perspective of magick or even to bridge that to a more cerebral approach of government. In order for the world to not be at war, we have to agree that there are boundaries we collectively cannot cross, no matter our justification, unless provided with a truly just reasoning. A treaty so to speak. Other than these very strict agreements, you are free to roam as you please. It is up to the individual to rule their own inner kingdom for themselves. No one can inhibit that liberty. It was expressed to me by my dear friend Antonio, a black man, a beautifully vocal Gemini in one with his power. I had met him working at CareFirst and we engaged in hours of spiritual philosophical debate and conversation. He stated to me that slavery was a choice. We all choose our “masters” in a sense. Whether through employment, lifestyle or government. Brutality and force are executed to bend the will. To incite fear in order to gain control. You sacrifice your sense of freedom for your survival. Something we all have done and continue to do, for survival. The philosophy to this choice resides in whether you are willing to sacrifice your freedom in order to mundanely live or whether you are willing to stand in your truth regardless of the mental, emotional, physical or spiritual turmoil that may come your way. In other words, you should be willing to die for your authenticity no matter what harm comes your way. Because again, we all have free will and you may not know what another could do, be willing to do or why they would. This can be a lesson in a need for all to be enrolled in a form of self defense of mind, body and spirit. It is important to build yourself, your tower with the strength, power, will of perfect balance. Only then will you be ready to walk or lead your path. I find this to be part of what Nietzsche meant when he said god was dead. We do not have that human decency and respect or morale anymore. We have all killed the sanctity of human kind as one. The division had won. How do we reverse this loss? How can we reconnect, try again and lighten the weighted heart to match that of the birded feather?

What is this division I speak of? There is a tale of the Tower of Babel. God became enraged that the people were working together to build a “false tower,” so he separated the humans and disrupted their language to divide them. They could not work together if they could not understand one another. In my cryptic belief, I find this to be a message of corruption. Which ever they you subscribe to being your satan, your devil or your adversary in this battle to your soul, they do not want you to work with your aligned people and purpose, nor bridge that connection unto the collective. They do not want you to build your own individual tower to heaven. To your own ascension. Your absolution. They want you to stay on a low vibration to feed off your worship. That is why they divided us all and disconnected the human species as one human race. This can be considered conspiratorial, however you see these themes mirrored throughout all moments in time, through myths and lore alike.

Now to respond to the misunderstandings of my ethnicity and my heritage. I am significantly mixed. My mother is Hispanic Irish, my father is Slavic Italian. Those are the 4 main of my nuclear family unit and modern presentation. However, that does not describe or accurately identify my entire DNA. I have a long lineage of mixed couplings throughout my entire lineage. Through human migration, immigration, refugee of historical events and all of the above. I am still on the journey of discovering these truths. I have the basic understanding through the study of the gene testing of other family members, the family folklore, the etymology of the last names of my fathers and forefathers etc etc. This is a complex topic. Which is why I brought up the Eve gene. Which is a scientific theory that we all originated from the same (in Africa or potentially Pangea) and had been divided throughout a variety of biblical, apocalyptic, or naturally disastrous events. Which is why all regions and practices and cultures have very strong similarities with slightly skewed adaptations at their core. That does not mean that practices have not been lost, corrupted or redirected. Which we have seen play out through the Christian era. I am equally not naive to the potential that I have tyrannical ancestors and I am here to break the cycle of their sins. I urge others to understand the same. Even if you are a modern descendent of a victimized population, you may be rattled to discover the sins of your lineage that may have allowed or caused such events to occur. Therefore, we all need to move forward with forgiveness of ourselves, our ancestors, our adversaries and anyone in between.

I have never once used my race to “justify” anything. I communicated expression of this complex ethnic discussion as generalized as I could while equally attempting to calm an angry mob. Which backfired. The more details I loosely provided to try to defend my stance, the more they tried to mock or demonize the generalized points with snappy judgments. Another reason why 3 minutes is not enough time to have any form of true discussion. It is also fair to state that social media is a dense expression of communication and human interaction. Equally another lesson in my need to learn better forms of communication and how to concise my point more appropriately. Which, I have yet to truly know to be possible. I find such need for elaboration behind it all. When I generalize in hopes the rest of the population will understand? They make overreached assumptions based in ego, trauma and ignorance.

I digress, back to my ancestry, I am also expressing the ancestral connections I have personally experienced through meditation, psychedelic experience and other forms of divination or mediums. This is a very personal and intricate journey and expression. Many will say I am making this up as well or that I have a drug brained illusion. That is for them to worry about for themselves, not for me to care. I cannot worry about all the others who will believe me to be crazy, delusional or inexperienced when I felt these truths for myself. I cannot change the minds of others that are indoctrinated with false beliefs of practices, drugs or medicines. I can only understand that of which I understand for myself and continue to allow those understandings to evolve as I gain more knowledge. I do not arrogantly speak that I have all the answers within these experiences, but I have my own thoughts, theories and understandings to them. My agreement or disagreement with others and their perspectives, may be met with a passionate debate, however it is never in hate, maybe some misunderstanding and frustration, but never violence. For the person I am engaging with, they are me and I am them, having our own versions of life and doing our best to process it all. Therefore I will never disregard your human decency despite my misalignment with you, your beliefs, or your practices. Yet, I will always have my right to speak on them as I have experienced them and vice versa. I shall hold the space for another to do so back to me. I am not afraid of the mirror being turned onto me. Even if I have a moment of reaction. Equally you cannot gatekeeper god, the universe etc etc.. So? Closed practices? Do not exist in the sense that you cannot practice them unless you are of *insert blank.* There are a multitude of reasonings as to why someone feels called to another practice. Especially considering time is an illusion, happening all once etc etc.

While living in your modern day expression, yes, you still have to follow and maintain the boundaries of respect of that practice. Which is why I do not necessarily practice voodoo in an entirety. But my practices may resemble that of voodoo origin and through my time in New Orleans, I had adapted parts of my understanding and practice from that experience. I practice that which my intuition has lead me to, that of which my ancestors guide me, that of which my past lives guide me and that of which is an equivalent practice or varied manifestation of the same essence from another version of culture. It is beyond humorous to me that the world does not believe I am who I say I am. It is truly a projection of their own bravado, their own facade. I am almost too transparent for my own good. Life is a paradox and there can be multiple truths that are true at the same time. It is a matter of connection and insight. I am on this journey of understanding myself from my introspection and processing of stimuli around me. I do not have to answer to any vampire, troll, or closed minded being that only desires to invoke harmful chaos for the sake of “evil’s” sake, even if ultimately, it is there free willed right to do so on their own accord.

It is hurt people who hurt people. If you are wounded, you will react in wounding unto others of all living life forms. You may only be the bully to a mouse or an ant or any other “lesser” than you life form and you may justify these actions in honor of your god. But to the ant, to the mouse, to the underdog, you are just as much of a bully, just as much of a tyrant as the monster master who enslaved you or your ancestors, whichever moment of time it occurred. Whether it was 300 years ago, or 3000 or 3000000 years ago. Which, to be direct in metaphor, didn’t the devout white christian slave owners, the KKK etc equally express justification of their actions in honor of their god? How their god allowed them to commit such acts as the chosen people? How ironic. This does not mean that I am in justification of such groups. Many do not enjoy the sense of hypocrisy and the sense of the mirror being reflected back onto them. However it is true that we all are mirrors and repetitive cycles on all scales no matter which level of suffering you would personally classify it to be.. until we choose to break free. Until we choose to do our best within our circumstance and take small steps, small goals to achieve the alignment we authentically desire for our inner peace. This does not mean to get lost in perfectionism. You can only do the best that you can under your circumstances. You cannot control everything, however that of which you can control, you should mindfully take action. You cannot erase the past history, but you can transmute your current state into a brighter future. You can sit with your demons, you can overcome them with self mastery and cultivate a world of your dreams. You can reconnect to the collective soul as a unique individual and generate harmony for all.

Now, why would I state the “hoodoo is the whitewashed evolution of voodoo?” This is coming from the belief, expression or understanding of how the people of hoodoo came to Haiti, the other surrounding islands and the New Orleans, Louisiana area. It is my understanding, of which I could be misinformed or wrong about, but again my understanding through a variety of sources, that Africans were kidnapped, enslaved and brought to these islands and regions. This draws the conclusion that this population of people are descendants of slaves. Equally, during the time of the slave trade, the whites, being Christian based, enforced the infiltration, integration, indoctrination and conversion of traditional, core folk practices from the “homeland” of the enslaved. The elites of the time did not want the slaves engaging in their own culture. They wanted to demolish those beliefs and forced theirs onto others. This is how I draw the conclusion that hoodoo adapted, evolved and was converted into a new version of itself through survival. In order to maintain the core values and practices of voodoo, the people adapted, integrated and formed a version of their core belief system into something new, something as safe in expression as it could be under the circumstances and something that resembled that of the religion of their enslavers. This is how you can see that Christianity and colonization blended in with these practices. I have read a few articles, of which I can pull up online, that connect the similarities of hoodoo and Catholicism. I have also seen connections to the core beliefs of voodoo being connected to catholicism. Equally I was taught about these insights of religious or spiritual evolution when I was in New Orleans and began my education on these practices. To avoid any other argument, I was not taught this stance from only a white person. I was taught these stances through multiple types of people, black and white or mixed and alike, at a variety of events, places and sources. I could very well have been misinformed. Which I would then argue a need for New Orleans and the exploited, capitalistic expression of voodoo and hoodoo to be extinguished and reborn. Why have an entire city dedicated to a culture, when it is filled with lies, misinformation and improper adaptations? We need to cleanse all the corruption that spreads the falsity of the pure essence of religion and culture.

To redirect, I am against the uprise of Christianity or any indoctrination or corruption of the masses. I am against the colonization, conversions and genocide of cultures. Expressing a desire for unity does not mean that I believe everyone to need to believe in the same expressions. It is a need for us all to understand the root of our evolution and to allow freedom for individual expression. That being said, I will only speak against a practice if I am confused on the expression of it. Only if I find it to go against that core philosophy. Hoodoo developed as it did through the circumstances of the history of the time. It is unfortunate. Do we continue to express this adaption now that we are out of the woods, so to speak? Or do we find our way back to the beginning of it all before the corruption, before the “evil” of the false gods and ideals and evolve into the futurist utopia of our dreams? I am not sure for the collective. For myself? I am in a desperate desire to find the original. To discover the beginning of it all. I desire to take the fundamentals of the past that “worked” peacefully for the good of the all, release the “workings” that do not and evolve into a balanced future. I desire to discover the roots, the dreams of the ancients. Which is why I do not agree with the modern day manifestation or expression of a multitude of practices. For this is not what the etymology represents in the words provided in these texts. Which can equally be a misinterpretation or translation of the original symbolic picture forms of writing. Which then would equally dismiss all my theories and expressions. Which then, not only would I be wrong throughout this entire blog post or spiritual path, but history as I/we know it would be entirely wrong. This shatters all grasp on reality as we know it to be on a multitude of planes. This is unsettling. If none of this is real, how do we know what is? Is anything even real at all? How do we swim in this void? How can we walk on or through this water?

To address my opinions on Witchfoot and my review of her book. I will first state that I find it very immature to not understand how I could skim through a book and determine it was not for me. I do not need to list all the books I have read. I do not need to prove to anyone my background information, and yet equally I do. For those who want to understand and are curious, I will gladly share my books and give others the space to interpret them as they find suits them best. That being said, I have been an avid reader from a early age. A sponge to knowledge, words, philosophies and theories. I gather them all in and make my own personal conclusion. Whether I am right or not, I do not know. I know I am “right” for me and my path. This is not an expression of pretentious arrogance. It is a truth I know of myself. Those who know me on a personal level, have witnessed this skillset of mine to process information. However others choose to judge that, is for them to take or leave for themselves and for me to not worry about. I have learned that I cannot allow any family member, friend, spouse, stranger or collective to whirlwind me into a state of agonizing scrutiny.

Zannah had sent me videos and pictures of the book. I was able to read through those pages and videos. Analyze them for what they were and conclude that this is a basic, beginner book filled with novice, regurgitated information. I did not feel any insight. I did not feel any magick or call to the book. She stated this was unbiased to her own beliefs and was information passed down from the ancients. Which there isn’t any bias in the book. It’s truly just a listing. Yes, this allows the space for independent crafts to take place and grow. My issue for this guide, is that there does not seem to be any expression as to why or how to complete these spell workings within the ancient philosophies. It allows people a list of ingredients to recklessly complete on their own. It comes across to me as an ego based, conquering mentality that these herbs, plants etc etc will simply bend to your will as the practitioner, creator, magician or the god in control. Which I have found through my practice to not be true. It is important to build connections to these energies as equally living beings. Assuming these workings will simply do as you ask, demand or will because of your power is an egocentric philosophy. Through the myths of the Rainbow Serpent and plenty of others (The Australian Rainbow Serpent myth is my favorite) we are guardians of the earth and her inhabitants. Ultimately, just as any bully can force someone or something into submission on a multitude of scales, any practitioner can conjure these forces to do as they wilt whether through force or manipulation, instead of mutual connection and energetic balance or kinship. The question is, does that make it right? Does it make it balanced or just. Witchcraft, magick, alchemy or scientific creation/manifestation (all truly one in the same) should be met with balanced energies to accomplish the best outcome on all scales. To quote Jurassic Park, “we worried so much about whether we could do it, we didn’t stop to think whether we should.”

The universe is a complex concept, manifestation and expression of life and what it means to be alive. Within all the diversity we can physically see within our plane, our world, we can conclude that there would be even more diversity on other planes. Meaning that not only do you need to ensure your personal scale is balanced, but that you do not create a “butterfly effect” or “ripple” in the void. These are the consequences to your actions or your magick. This is how you manifest and cultivate your reality. Every form of magick sends out a vibration. It is important to ensure that vibration does not tip a scale and create unnecessary disruption, for then the scales will need to be rebalanced. Which when rebalancing the scales, you may not enjoy that pendulum swing. If we all held ourselves to this standard, we could have a world that is not off balance, that is not corrupted and “chaotic” as we see it now. We can break these cycles. Our spiritual path, our journey to our ascension, our godhood will only be accomplished when you can be balanced, ethical and just as the judge and the executioner. This is how we transmute universal laws. I find practitioners like Witchfoot to lack the “big picture” and only to be focused on their own ego, power and clout chasing leadership. That is not to say that you cannot learn anything from her. I have had plenty of mentors that I initially learned a deep amount of insight from, but then I equally was able to identify when they were no longer for me, when I had surpassed them, or when I was in need of something deeper, bigger or simply more. I am here to be something greater than myself. I become agitated to see others do not desire the same for themselves. I find that to be such a shame and a waste of energy, of life. But equally, who am I to judge? Maybe my desire for love, balance, peace and a new brighter world of unity is equally as disgusting, egotistical, delusional and falsely romantic as the rest. I have yet to reach a conclusion of the fullest expression of my life. The entirety of my journey has not ended. Yet, I have concluded a chapter, a cycle, a lesson within my soul. I have died and been reborn to begin along this next phase in my life. For what is is worth, I apologize for those I have hurt and wounded through the course of my actions or words. That was never my intent. My intent of shining the light on these harsh truths, insights or observations of our world has always been with the desire to escape the hellish world as I knew it and find the paradise I can feel within.